God, I’m really starting to freak out about what I’m going to do next year. I have no idea.
I’m in my final year of high school and I’m going to all the meetings/lectures on different universities to go and that’s fine, but I have no idea what I want to do with my life. There are things I like to do, but I don’t have the qualifications to do it at uni. They’re just hobbies really, nothing I could really see myself doing for the rest of my life. And to get any kind of decent job nowadays, you need a degree of some description.
I’ve thought about the armed forces, but I don’t want to be tied down with that for several years and end up hating it. And the thought of a gap year scares me a bit. I’ll need a job and somewhere to live. And I’m scared that I’ll get so used to not being at school that I won’t even end up going to uni.
Fuck. Why do I have to make big life decisions when I’m only seventeen? It doesn’t really seem fair.